I am an only child. So aside from a handful of foster siblings, I have no idea what it's like to live with brothers and/or sisters.
That was my main reason for wanting to have as many kids as possible. I always felt so alone and would have loved to have a brother or sister.
I remember the days, when Hope was an only child. Oh how Hubby and I doted on our sweet, little princess. We held true to first-time parents form and spent every second with Hope. We were so occupied with watching and caring for Hope, we couldn't imagine how we would care for another child.
When Nick came along. we adapted. We learned to care for both babies, but again, all our time was dedicated to caring for them. Taking care of a third child seemed almost impossible.
By the time Ashley came along, I had gained so much confidence as a mom. I had done a fairly good job of caring for Hope and Nick, having another baby no longer seemed so overwhelming. I was so at ease with caring for three children, adding another one was something I looked forward to.
Which we did. Jack was our fourth child.
Raising four children isn't as hard as you think. Sure, there's never a quiet moment, but I love that! I love listening to my children play, laugh, squeal and scream.
This Sunday, we got a taste of what life with one child is like again. Hope, Nick and Jack went out with my brother-in-law's family. Ashley didn't want to go, she preferred to stay home and see what life without any siblings is like.
We loved spending some alone time with Ashley. We played a few games. Read a couple of books. And watched T.V.
But the house was too quiet. Disturbingly quiet.
No one screaming, "Mamáaaaaaa!"
No one screaming at all!
Even Ashley noted that something just didn't feel right. She loved playing with Mamá and Papá, but she missed playing with her brothers and sisters. Without them, she just felt kind of bored.
As the afternoon passed, the three of us grew restless.
Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, my three children returned home. As they entered the house, the nerve-wracking silence was broken. And we couldn't have been happier.